What's The Word For...

...the sound my head makes when it explodes due to trying to get on the train, watching people streaming through the other three doors and getting all the seats while I'm behind someone just coming out of the fucking womb, slooooooowly stepping forward and taking their time to look at every inch of the world in front of them, to the left of them and up and down and all around themselves so that when I finally get inside the car there is nary a seat left? aaaaarrrgggghhhh!!!!